hi bro :)

hi bro. you is speshul!

just so you know.

cause you told me to prove it, so i am.

YOU SOOPER SPESHUL, BRO.

SEE, I NOT EVEN CALL YOU BRAH.

OR BREH.

BELIEVE ME NOW?

anyway. i tells you now.

^^^^^

good?

i hope so.

now you can reads every time you feels unspeshul.

and knows you speshul.

:) <3333

empty.

i feel alone.

then again, how could i not with you around?

you make me feel as if my whole life has already passed by

and i have missed all opportunities presented,

just ending up by myself.

why should i need to feel like this?

i have so much ahead,

but you leave me feeling as if i had so little.

as long as you are around,

i will feel this way.

just empty.

but don't worry about me,

i'll be fine.

i'll fill up some way or another.

much more.

i would tell you what's on my mind,

but nothing new is there.

what could i tell you that you don't already know?
you have much more than i.

you have dreams bigger than mine,

places to go that are farther than mine.

you have much more than i.

i sit here and struggle for words to say,

words that i might never find because they are hidden.

while you articulate with grace,

you never need to search for words because the words are waiting for you.

you never need to search for anything.

life is waiting for you,

you need not waste time pondering.

you see,

you have much more than i.

i will not just sit back and wait.

i refuse to be your second best.

i am your all, or i am your nothing at all.

shh. it's subtle.

you're not on my mind all the time.

but something about you feels right.

everyone else feels different.

i want to be next to you.

i want to be with you.

but at the same time, i don't.

maybe there's something about you and me

that just wouldn't work.

or maybe,

just maybe,

that exact same thing is the reason it would.

finding something to do.

i am afraid of separation
i cannot be far from you,
yet i am being dragged by my torn sleeves.

i am afraid of the dark.
i can only feel the tremors under my bed,
yet the street lamps are broken and the stars are fading.

so what am i to do,
when the lights are off and no one is home?
i am all alone.

i cower from the noise.
it hits me like a siren, loud and unfocused.
yet it will not stop, it crowds my ears.

i cower from your judgement.
it locks me up like a cage in the basement,
yet you have thrown away the key.

so what do i do now,
when your judgement is as loud
as the ringing in my ears?

musical puns.

i have looked for you.

but like a bad key change you're not necessary;

the sound of my name would be better without you.

maybe you have been placed in the wrong spot,

maybe you were an accidental.

or maybe you're just a bad sound

on top of the sticcato lives that you reside with.

i will keep watching out for you, so you don't mess me up.

i won't give you the chance.